Didn't mean to

Today is the last day for my first semester at SFU and im just finishing up the final copy of my FAL research paper. whilst taking a break, i randomly looked at my past conversations in my inbox on facebook and begin deleting conversations with people im sure i wont talk to again. i was fine until i stumbled upon old conversations from W and at that moment, it felt like i was hit with a trainwreck of mixed emotions. i had meant to delete them but i couldnt bring myself to before, like how i cant bring myself to do it now. i know i should but there is just something about it. i didnt mean to keep it till now, and i didnt mean to reread it. i also didnt mean to get her in trouble 2 years ago (actually, pretty much exactly 2 years ago), but it still happened. is it weird to remember exactly how i felt at that time? "the mushy-est feeling ever"? i remember the tron movie day as if it was yesterday. i remember the littlest details about that day. everytime i smell coconuts now, i remember that day. do i love the smell of coconuts because they remind me of that day, or do i hate coconuts for the same reason? is that weird?

 so of course after reading the conversation, i remembered the emails in my hotmail so i went there to see if i still had them and not surprised, there they were. all in a row in my hotmail. the trainwreck of emotions continued as i read each email word by word. all the while, my head painting pictures of what i was doing the exact moment when i was reading/writing the emails. i remember exactly how i felt when i received the emails and exactly how i felt reading them. is that normal? to be able to remember everything so vividly? i dont know. i havent asked or told anyone. thats why im here. im not sure if anyone understands. should i keep the emails? should i keep the conversation on facebook? all it is doing is keeping that part of me in the past alive. would i feel much better knowing that i will never accidentally stumble across those words again? or would i feel worse, knowing that i'll never get those back, and never be able to read the words again. i must be over thinking. it is getting late and my brain must not be functioning logically at all. i just needed to rant and as there are, at this time, no appropriate outlets, this blog gets it. 

buhrahh

ans: i do still...sht.. what do i do..

Wee!

HUG yesterday! just saying ^^ feels kinda normal again

pill

Need to swallow this pill that they call pride...

gr

i saw you on the skytrain today and i was filled with rage...fuck you for ruining my last afternoon ever with WLL when we saw you at school...

^^

good night to you too Weenee!! i really want to text you back but your mom may have your phone so i can only hope you read this.
yes, we'll talk tomorrow =]

good luck!!

i know we said we would stay up till midnight to wait for your marks but i guess that cant happen anymore =/

none the less, i will be up at midnight rooting for you from over here :D so Weenee, im sure you did really well on your harmony exam and i really hope your mom will ease off in a while. until then, dont back-talk her and do everything she says. i would still really like to talk to your mom though.

PS, seeing you smile in pe today made my entire day. and when you punched me during the run, i was even happier because it was one more step closer to be where we were before. i just couldnt stop smiling for 10 seconds, but it was the best to see your smile =)

PSS, i've been looking at this picture all day and i dont know if i should be happy or s

ad. you look like a may nuu :)

i hope you see this.

Weenee, i really hope you see this. im writing this on the night you deactivated your account. since i am not able to contact you on facebook anymore, im hoping we can still talk through here.

first off, im so sorry i gave you the idea so put the picture with me and the heart on your profile. if i did not say that one sentence, you would not be in any trouble right now and we can act however we want around eachother. i already miss you Wen-Ling and right now, this exact moment, i have 2 tears on my face thinking about how we cant hug, talk, or stay after school and just be ourselves. im trying very very hard not to cry more because guys done cry remember? and if i do, i wont admit it but i miss you already. you know what will be the hardest? seeing you at school, in the halls and not be able to hug you and seeing you every day one and not being able to do anything about it. thats the hardest. now that i think back, if i knew that tonight was going to be the last time we facetimed eachother, i would not have ended that call. all i have now are just our photos on my ipod to look at to try to remember what we were talking about at the moment. i cant help it, i just broke down like crazy water works happened. i still like you a lot. like, A LOT and i think thats why this is so emotional for me. i hope everything is okay over there, and i hope i see you a lot at school and we can talk about everything. good night Wen-ling, i sincerely apologize for suggesting we should put eachother's picture on our profiles.

now that everyone's forgotten about my blog, i can actually so what my blog says-where i call it as i see it- without anyone judging. okay, the main thing on my mind right now: you wanna fucking tell me why you're not replying? if you honestly don't want to hang out, it'll suck but at least i will know and not fucking waste my time waiting for your message. i could have made so many other plans but i didnt want to bcuz i wanted to hang with you. and now the night of, you still havent called me or messaged me. thanks a lot... you think you can play me like this? just come out and say it...

Second thing on my head, i know its not your fault but im pretty fucking choked about friday. it took me so long to convince my parents to let me go to your party and everyone was suppose to drink the night away and get smashed and hell yeah, i was looking forward to it bcuz i wouldnt get in trouble this time for drinking but then you spring the news on me that we might not be able to drink? fuuuuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk soooo hurtttttttt. i know its not your fault but it was the thing i looked forward to the most for the past week. and fucking tonight like 30 minutes ago, i got prank called by 2 Lgs... dont you have anything else to do than to piss me off?

holy shit, so much negativity in the beginning of summer but at least everyones done studying for provincials and all my friends can hang now so i dont have to stay home and watch movies.

one positive thing though, i've been getting a lot of excersize done by jogging around deer lake for the last 4 days. i plan to be healthier going back to school than now. well, i guess this brings me back to my other post today, dont get your hopes up cuz some bitch will come and wreck it

hope

never get your hopes up bcuz some fuckin little bitch will just fuck with you and mess everything up. its not worth the time thinking about it; move on

yoyoYO!! im back

yoyoyo everyone im back!! miss me?? i didnt think so xD. in case anyones wondering, i forgot my username and password and today is randomly came back to me !!! WHOAAA!! talk about random. so what went on? toooooo many thing to say so... im gunna try to sum it up in a list:
-i bought 2 new hamsters
-i went to rcmp youth academy week for 9 days in chilliwack
-canucks won todays game ( 7-2) and might actually have a shot at the stanley cup
-i used a bunch of rcmp drills on my pe leadership kids
-olympics in vancouver was so much fun
-gunna quit mcdonals soon =D
-joined and quit track and field
-miserably getting butt kicked in physics
-and fell in love with a tap dancer i've only seen once. hopefully i get to see her again!!! <3
theres too much stuff going on now that i cant possible post about everything so.. now that i remember my password and username, im gunna try to post about everything =]

waiting

i finally told you that i liked you which im happy with on my part because i promised myself that if i liked someone and i know i do, i would tell them. its funny cuz when i did, i just told you and pretty much ran away like a little girl xD i had to come by your block G class to actually ask you out but you said you had to think about it which is totally cool. think about it, think it through. i had to tell you because if i didn't, i would never know. this way, what ever your response is gunna be i would never have to wonder about "what if". i dont wanna put myself through wondering if the that person feels the same way about me.

going to lougheed today to go to my friends lounge to play ping pong and just chill was a lot of fun. we talked and ate food and shot cards at eachother =P the best part of it was when me and my friend walked all the way home from b.central. we talked about soooooo many things going on in our lives mainly the mistakes that i've made. we talked about our siblings and how they relate to us. me and my best friends, we're like completly opposite in every way. one example, i am the oldest out of my siblings and he's the youngest so we talked about how being raised that way totally changes the way we learn stuff. i told him how i learn stuff from experiencing it first and get into shit all the time. he says he learns stuff from his brothers getting into shit and he just wont do that. i was raised up with parents, mostly my dad beating me for every mistake i made. i fucking hate him for that because now even though on the outside i look ok, inside i do stuff without telling them all the time because i never get to experience anything. my friend on the other hand knows something isnt right and he wont do it. his parents never hit him all too much so he learned from his brothers and sisters. we also talked about looking out for family members. he fought someone cuz someone wanted to pick a fight with his older sister and i told him i will break someones face if they ever messed with my sister too. i told him straight up if any guy does something stupid or makes my sister cry, i will break his face in front of the whole school without a second thought. he agrees with me. our parents wont care if we're sticking up for our own family. other than that, we're very different because of the way we raised. maybe thats why we get along so well. he teaches me about lots of stuff and hopefully he's learning stuff from me too.

good day

sooo, long time no post-thats cuz theres nothing interesting or out of the ordinary to talk about but.....now, i have lots of great things to say. first of all, i invented a game. i knew the game was gunna be a lot of fun but i had no idea that it would actually be this fun. like, holy shit, you have no idea. after pe, i can hear the kids talking to all their friends about it in the halls when im walking behind them ( not that i was stalking). i cant believe it got so big. all the pe teachers are sooo impressed by it and yeah, i am just so happy about that. on wednesday, mr davis said that the game will be passed down to future generation and be played my other pe classes and the game is either gunna be called Justin-credible or Justin's game of Anarchy. yeah i know, i want my name in the title because i want ppl to know in the future who invented the game ^^. today in block F, i got to get out of baking because we're doing nothing so i went to ms. ashbury's class and taught my game to another class and they LOVED it as well. they keep asking me to play it with them next time even though im not their pe leadership students. wow, all of my own kids love it so much too and want to play it all the time. ahhhhh, the awesome feeling you get when something you invented comes to life right before your eyes =)

wo de failed jong wen post xP

wo jian de hen sian ni eh, ne ji dow mah? wo how jiao may yo kan dow ni le...wo ji dow wo men the nian jee lian nien is too much but i think that wo men ka yi make it work. hen qi guai bah? when we met, i had no idea wo huay qi hwen ni eh. jian de. now, wo may chi kan dow ni de shi ho wo do hway han kai qin yeh =D kan dow ne a shi ho wo do how quai luh oh. gan ni jia yi qi da shi ho everytime do han how wuan nay! but juay da obstacle is wo men da age. ni dow bu huan wo de facebook de qian =( wo may tien do jia dun ni de reply yeh >.<
its ok, at least wo huay kan dow ni thursday =D thurday jia kan bah, kan nan bu nan gan ni yi qi wuan =)
how qi quai, hway qi huan ni yeh xD
ok, jia jian lo! bye~~

"sitting around, chilling, kicking around thinking of you...i know you gone away"

the last of the mohicans

hands down, one of my favourite movies, if not my favourite. the theme song is just too beautiful..and matches the movie perfectly. the cue of the music in the parts of the film is genius. i love this movie so much. this movie talks about the wars in canaa with the french, english and the natives that already inhabits canada. love, sacrafice, family and hatred are themes that is portrayed many many times throughout the movie. i just love this move so much because the love in the movie is great! let it be with family, or their lovers, and what they are willing to do for love. and i just have to mention again, the music is just too goood. for the last hour, i just youtubed the movie's theme in trance mode. the different remakes by other dj's are awesome. i just thought i woul share tis with ppl. movie and music, VERY highly recommended you check it out. who knows, you miht like it too =D

quotes:
"They're going to hang you. Why didn't you leave when you had the chance?"
"Because what I'm interested in is right here."

"No, you submit, do you hear? You be strong, you survive... You stay alive, no matter what occurs! I will find you. No matter how long it takes, no matter how far, I will find you."

"And men like you will go too, like the Mohicans. And new people will come, work, struggle. Some will make their life. But once, we were here. "

law

im at school right now in law class. im suppose to do a project on the criminal code of canada but since its not due today, im gunna do it at home. it also gives me an excuse to go on the computer at home. me and dominika are partners but she isnt doing anything right now cuz she has to study for her biology test i hope she does well in....NOT!

so yesterday was the orientation for my rcmp youth acedemy camp and i made it in for sure. i am so excited because i heard from the speakers yesterday it will be the hardest week of our lives, physically, mentally and intellectually. i cant wait to see what they have in store for me.

after school today, i am going to the burnaby library to rent two movies. after, im going to crystal mall to buy a new charger for my laptop that my mom threw out during our move. after, im going to go and jog around deer lake with chance to get more fit; him for rugbyand me for rcmp. after that, i will go home, take a shower and go to hot tub at lesley's house!! it should be very fun because i never knew she had a hottub. plus, an early celebration for a long weekend

just know

awwww yeahh, pro-d day friday! i had no idea about it until today =D. i saw you in the hallway today and ughh, you seem to just know how to get make me like you. you're so fun to hang around with cuz i can treat you like a guy and never have to worry about offending you. i can joke around with you and it will be ok, you just fight back =) wrestling was the most fun with you cuz i didnt have to be like, omg, im wrestling a girl, gotta go easy. it was just like, haha!! have fun ^^. hanging with you is always so chilled and the little time was talk with each other, we can talk about almost anything. you offer advice to help me and sometimes it actually seems like you care about me. it weird that you're offering advice and sometimes it feels like you're looking out for me. i really wish we can hang out a lot more but it would be weird weird weird weird. too bad.
and oh yeah, racing around the home ec room with wheely chairs was awesome =D

old memories

so just today, i found this photo from when i was in grade 7. this was our grad camp. we went to camp sasamat for 3 days and 2 nights. i had a lot of fun there regardless of memories, good or bad. i remember the awkward time with me and my grade 7 girlfriend because we went to that camp with another school and yeah, no need for the details. but i also remember the group games, the good food, sneaking out in the middle of the night to the kitchen to get food, us sneaking out at night to hang out with a near-by girls cabin which we werent allowed, us getting caught by my teacher at night for hanging out with the girls around their cabin, and sharing the cabin with three of my bestest and oldest friends. remember how happy we were when we all got put into the same cabin? i remember. it was so frikken awesome. every memory came and hit me hard as soon as i saw this picture. this was the last time we all hung out like this without any awkwardness among us. some of us changed, some of us smartened up, some of us stayed changed. theres nothing i can do. i really miss this, you know. look at our faces, all happy and innocent. if we would have known how grade 8 would change our lives, i wonder if we'd all still be smiling. i mean, who can tell just from this picture how our lives would be like 4 year later. what has changed doesnt make some of you any less of a friend to me. i am glad i still see one of a few times a month. im glad i can see my other friend from time to time. i am just glad i can talk to my last friend every now and then to see how you're doing. i really miss us all hanging out and what now. what i wouldnt give to go back to those days...

holy shitz!

I PASSED THE RCMP YOUTH ACEDEMY FITNESS TEST!!!!! the three things being tested was broken up into running first, and push ups and sit ups last. for the run, i ran 2.4 km in 11:22 minutes (maximum time is 12 minutes), 52 push ups in 1 minute, and 57 sit ups in one minute. this may seem like easy but fuck man, it was hard as hell. i started getting tired on my 4th lap (12 in total) but got over it and kept running. yeah, i am happy right now, and extrmely soar. i worked out yesterday so my abs and arms were already soar but now, its my whole body thats sore. thank you to all the people that wished me luck and good job to the other 2 people from mountain since we all passed the fitness test

time

3 and a half hours until my test...holy shit. im nervous. i havent ate my lunch yet, but im not hungry. omfg, good luck.

thinking positive

as some people know, i was selected out of burnaby mountian from a handful of applicants to be given a chance to go to the 2010 RCMP youth acedemy for 1 week. 1 catch. i have to complete a fitness test tomorrow. i am aiming for 70 pushups under 60 seconds (i've done 72 before), going for 50 ab crunches in 60 seconds, and the only real challenge is funning 2.4 km under 12 minutes. im dreading the running the most. that is equivelent to 6 laps of the 400 m track, which means i have to run 200m under 1 minute. right now, i am so scared about that. i asked my career counsilor if i go over just a few seconds, what will happen. she said i would be immediately disqualified. shit. long distance running has never been my strong point, expecially after a bad habit for a long time. working out my arms today for half an hour didnt help...my arms are sore now and i think in screwed for tomorrow. never mind all that, all i can do now is to think positive thoughts. i will be able to run that distance, i will be able to do those pushups and sit ups, and i will make it in.

things things things to talk about

yet anotherrrrr new years resolution im working on::: wear colors!!! yeahh!! and you know what? im already working on that. i wore my old red central t-shirt to school today =D what a great start to my resolution huhh?? all my other resolutions are going good too so im happy.

i just found out today that my new pe leadership class is with the grade 10's. ohhhhh shit man, if this class was like my pe class last year, i think im dead. we were sooooo loud and noise. we didnt listen to our pe leadership student. im hoping that this class will be as good as my term 1 class

soo, im finally selling my armani shirts. i dont really like them anymore so they're gunna be sitting in the back of my closet (a first) for a long time. if i dont sell them, meh, doesnt matter. it just means i can keep them, not that i'll wear them, orrrr my sister kathy's gunna be a very lucky person xD

rant on psp- i am stuck on this level in need for speed undercover... I'VE TRIED SO HARD AND KEEP LOSING AT NEAR THE END!!! >.<>
hahaha i talked to a friend of mine who reads this and yeah, i totally agree, most of this blog is me complaining about various things. i originally set up this blog so i have a place to complain so i guess this site has proven itself useful.

so what can i complain about now...how about my boring school is, how tired i am in school, how fcuking stupid homework is, HOW MY PARENTS DONT TRUST ME TO DRIVE!...2005 subaru impreza wrx sti, my favourite car of all time.

for the better times

i know i got you in this. we started this together you and i. you had no idea until i introduced it to you but i smartened up and you didnt. you kept going while i stopped. now, you have almost everything you want. girls, drugs, whatever. but at what cost? one of our childhood friend from grade 3 doesnt care about you anymore. the 3 of us use to be so tight bro. me and you were still real tight and we did some crazy things even after i went to mountain to get away from all that. remember 'diddy day' ? that was pretty fun right? all those times we lied just to go to bham, up that 'wookie trail', and jacking chris up. those were some really fun times. i know your care free life is very easy but is it worth losing a childhood for? come on man, think about it for one sec. if its money that is your problem, come to me man. if anytime you're down to chill, call me up. dont you realize now lucky you're still alive after all that? im done with that now bro. im leaving those dark memories but man, you're a real good friend. you help get me through some tough times bro, and i could talk to you about lots of stuff and you had some good advice to offer me. its a pity you havent smarten up yet and i hope when you do, its not too late. for that, i will remember us for the better times. i'll remember how great our friendship has gotten since grade 3. i'll remember all the good things and non of the bad. i miss you man, the old you.

Random Little Story # 1

sooo another goal for the new year while i still remember: finish all those puzzles that i've started and have yet to finish >.<
anyways, finally starting one of the goals i set myself to do, and one of the reasons why i actually started this blog- to create and tell those little stories that i made up for my friend Landy. umm, this took a lot of digging and well, i finally found it

heres a little story that i wrote from quite some time ago and its a nice cute story to start off the new years and a new path for my blog. so i will title this blog random little story 1. i like that. i think for all the random little stories that i make up, im gunna title it under that title but change the numbers around.
okok, enough talking, heres the story. enjoy~~

Timmy was exited today, more than usual. His parents invited one of his classmates family over for dinner. Timmy's family and Annie's family have gotten pretty close in the last three months he's been to his new school. He had a crush on her his little grade two heart could barely handle. When Annie's family arived to his house, his heart almost jumped out of his body. Annie andher family came in. They sat around the living room and talked for a while then ate the dinner Timmy's mom had prepared. After dinner,he brought christie outside under the moonlight. He took her out into the moonlight because he thought it looks nice that night. Timmy walked around the block with Annie because he felt older being able to walk outside by himself with a girl. During their walk, a big wind comes and Annie says that she's cold now. Timmy ran and stood in front of Annie and stretched his arms as far as he could facing the wind to block the wind from blowing on Annie. Annie and Timmy both laughed a bit but Annie said that it didnt work. Timmy asked, "what will make you feel better"? with his arm still stretched and head tilted back. Then he says, "ahh, i know". He turns around, faces Annie and hug her just tight enough to keep her warm. Annie is a little bit shocked but hugs him back. They hug, under the moonlight until a car passes by. Timmy being the little boy that he is lets go of Annie because he didn't want to let people see him hugging a girl. There, the start of a beautiful start of their friendship.

Sooo... what did you guys think?? pretty good huh? theres a second part to this story but then i gotta find it in me and Landy's conversation.
tell me what you think please in my comment box ^___^

forget about the past

you gotta forget about the past. anything that made you mad, brush it off. another new years resolution: to anyone that i have problems with, im gunna try to tell them what it is i have a problem with. maybe it'll end badly but maybe it wont. there is one person expecially i have in mind. the other person is ms. december 21st who i dont give a shit about anymore so i guess i wont be talking to her. after getting through 2009, it feels like a huge burden has been lifted off me. its time to start new. break bad habits and start good ones. its time to look farther into the future since its getting closer to graduation. i have to start choosing who my real friends are. time to stop screwing around and get serious. i must say it is truly a new year because of the recent move into a new house.
oh yeah, my blogspot is also gunna have a brand new make over cuz im looking at videos on youtube on hot to jazz things up so.....stay tuned =D it will be good soon =)
anddd the stories that i wanted to write, will also start this year.

live up 2010! you may only have 2 more years to live xD
-JHT

twenty ten

new years new years new years!!
2010. a year for new things, or 2 years till death. who cares but im just hoping this year things will go much more smoothly. last year was full of experiences and this year i hope its the year of learning from them.

for christmas, our family just kinda chilled and we had steak at like 10 o'clock and on christmas eve, me and Chance went to macdonalds xD for christmas, i gave jocelyn my old iPod and i gave kathy a blouse from banana republic. for kathy's bithday, i got her a Coach bag. Coach didnt have a boxing day sale but they launched their new spring line so i bought kathy the newest bag of its kind they had there.

after that, me and kathy went to a youth's winter camp up at grouse mountain for 3 days and 2 nights. it was overall fun but they're were times i was really tired or im really mad at some people. we went tubing but couldnt go swimming. the food there was great and i played Risk for the first time and came third out of 5 ppl.

after getting home, i've been watching the first season of X-files. it is one of my favousite old shows. its so awesome about paranormal activities and supernatural forces.

ahh... hmm, i guess its not a new years without a new years resolution list. i dont have much but here goes:
1)get into RCMP Youth Academy Week
2)be able to run 2.4 km in less that 12 minutes
3)make money, save money
4)be nice, dont get mad too easily
5)make new friends, keep old ones
6)get parents to let me drive more.
7)be patient in my driving lessons class
8)completly quit smoking

today

sooooo, chirstmas eve, how we all doing? im doing super great. blowing off some steam yesterday night with the long ass post telling blogspot about how i feel is great. those shit dont phase me anymore and are no longer my problem. forget and move on.

today, i went on a major shopping spree with my friend. i bought a pair of new white pumas, black nike's shox air, new hoodie, season one of the X-Files, and steak knives. a few days ago, i bought a new PSP game and a touch screen music player. spending money and buying stuff makes me feel all better. and of course we talked about..stuff and its been a great day.

so my sister kathy got a new cell phone today. its sooooooo cool. completly touch screen and looks sooo wicked. im jealous of that dumb little person now =/ haha, just kidding but yeah, it is a really nice phone and she got it for 0$ and it came with the plan. she also pays less than me for a plan and gets more cool stuff like 1000 texts and unlimited weekends and weekdays after 6. damn... i dont got any of that. i bought her a formal blouse thing from banana republic as her christmas gift. so after all my shopping today, i forgot to buy my youngest sister something =O i forgot about her so hopefully i have a good excuse to give her something later.

today totally makes up for the crappy mood i was in yesterday.
happy holidays everyone!

too many things on my mind for a single title

first things first, moving is a hassle. we moved to our new house last week and it was very hard work. i got chance, daniel and tyson to help me move a whole shitload of boxes from my old house to my new house. that took like 3 hours. then we had pizza. now, our new house is still under revovations. we painted most of the rooms but most of our stuff is still in boxes downstairs. my sisters room is completly down. it looks really nice. my older sister wanted purple but the paint our parents got her turned out to be pink! haha!! my other sister wanted light blue and she got exactly that. my room? omg...you'll have to see it to explain it. i cant describe it but if you ever get the chance to see it, you'll understand. so yeah, my dad's been busy putting up curtains all day and painting and i kinda feel bad cuz my sisters and i are just watching tv. whenever i ask if i can help, he just says 'not now' so i guess theres nothing i can do.

hmm, you remember the 'break it of make it post'? yeah. you chose to break it. okay, thats alright with me. i promised myself that this would be the last time this will happen and i will keep that promise to myself. its gone, over, through. thanks for proving this was a waste of four years of hoping. i did learn something though. dont hold on to anything too long. it will be gone anyway. i really did love you. you were a huge part of my life even though you didnt know it. you know, you're what keeps me going when im at my lowest. i think of you and then i actually smile. now, what should i smile to? your gone, out of my life now. im never going to approach you again. i promised myself to think of you as a stranger now. we were great friends, lets see how long before you talk to me if i dont talk to you first. lets hope by that time i'll be completly over you and wont be at all excited to hear from you, like the way i am now. cya, talk to you never

i've been grounded even since the halloween party. couldnt go out, couldnt hang out or anything. and finally i convinced my parents to let me hang out with you. everytime before we hang out, its always been...dissapointing. we never talk about stuff, and we always end up being pissed at eachother somehow. its fun talking on msn and stuff but whenever we talk face to face, some shit always come up and holy fuck, im always angry after hanging out. so two days ago, i thought i'd just hang out. maybe somethings changed. guess what, not a fucking thing has changed. and what the FUCKS! up with hitting me with your umbrelly??? are you trying to tell me something?? just fucking come out and say it. just cuz i dont spazz out at you or say shit about it doesnt give you the right to do shit like that. i even said, 'stop it, its kinda bugging me' and you dont even listen and keep doing it. okok, maybe i usually kid around and you probably thought hitting me was a game too but when i say stop, come on, just stop. you couldnt tell how shit-faced i was? and whats worse, i even asked you if the other people coming is ok with me hanging out with you guys. you said they didnt mind. are you sure? they seem to not want be there. thats a fucking shitting feeling to know you're not wanted somewhere. the other two guys left earlier than i did. they're smart. it was a waste of time with you guys anyway but i stuck around like a fucking loser. then after, what happened? you three started to walk without even telling me you're going so i followed. you didnt even turn back to tell when where you're going and just completly ignored me. what the fuck was that about huh? do you know how i felt to be ditched like that bye three people, one being someone that invited to to this thing? so i just left and looked at what i wanted to look at. today, you post on my facebook wall complaining about me leaving you guys without saying bye. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS??? YOU FUCKING STRAIGHT UP DITCHED ME AND YOU STILL HAVE THE FUCKING GUTS TO BE SAD THAT I DIDNT SAY BYE? holy shit, i almost didnt even believe my eyes when i saw that post..DO YOU EVEN GIVE A SHIT? or are you trying to make me feel bad. cuz uh, news flash, i dont give a shit about that. these days, i dont give a shit about anything anymore.

maybe thats my fault too, i'll admit. i keep too much shit to myself. i dont open to anyone. becasue of my past experiences, i have trust issues now. im afraid to tell anyone anything. its hard to trust people cuz some people will just use it against you in the future. because of this, i lost out on so many things. i really wish sometimes i can have someone to tell everything too. i envy the people who have that one person who they can tell anything to. how do you find someone like that? isnt it hard to trust someone completly with your secrets?? if i had someone like that, i think my life will be so much easier cuz then i wont keep everything bottled inside me. sometimes, i actually think i could explode and fucking break someones face in half. the only thing that calms me down when im like that is crying. its a complete sign of weakness i know but by that time, i dont care. im just focused on not letting another person piss me off or i think he's gunna end up in a hospital. so squeeze out a few tears, cry for a sec, not let anyone see you and its all good. i've been crying more that usual which kind sucks. more and more bad things are happening. im still wondering what can bring me real joy. actually, i think i know but im not gunna say. its not...innapropriate stuff -.- but if i say it, it will make me sound like a selfish son of a bitch.

facebook you fucking faggot. why wont you work for me? when kathy goes on, she can do everything. when i sign on, i cant post anything, accept anything, or change anything. you're fucking pathetic


on a happier note, my sisters getting a cell phone tmr. im excited for her =D i remember when i first got me own celly so i can understand her happiness when she's getting one too. and christmas is coming. boxing day follows. im glad because christmas usually is joy and happy. boxing day is great to look at stuff and buy what i really want. tomorow im gunna hang with my friend chance and go looking for stuff. im gunna look for the stuff i wanna buy on boxing day so on the 26th, i can just buy it and not try anything on.

i think abou lots of stuff when bad shit does wrong. when the world gets you down, turn your back on the world, say fuck it, and go on. put on your game face, dont give a shit about what other people say, do your own thing. if they give you advice you dont wanna hear, fuck them. your only regret is what you didnt do, not what you did. if you fuck up, who cares, hrug at it, no big deal. you caused it, you solve it. think it fast, be impulsive. remember thats what you wanted to do at the time. dont think things through, you'll only regret not doing it at the time. consequences will pass, your experience will stay with you forever. learn from it and do it again. fail agian, learn from it some more.
^ i know, not the best thought right before christmas day but its true.

have a happy holiday, i hope its better than mine.

curry chicken

first i wanna say. eating curry and rice after midnight is a garaunteed win. curry is so damn good but tastes better at night. and im excited for dec. 21st

stuff to talk aboot

being at work every saturday from 7am-3pm really starts to get boring after a while. getting up at 5:30 to hop on a bus and go all the way the hell to lougheed is cold, tiring, and boring. while there, its freezing cuz theres freezers everywhere and then it gets hot cuz there are fryers everywhere. its totally gross. so while there, sometimes, i have a few random thoughts that pop into my head. i thought i'd list them out:

-DAMN that girl is hot.
-HOLY SHIT STOP EATING MACDONALDS IF YOUR LOOKING LIKE THAT, cant even fit into a booth thing...
-i gotta sneeze, but it looks bad sneezing in front of ppl
-i gotta blow my nose!! and theres a huge line >.>
-I GOTTA TAKE A SHIT!!! (LOL just kidding)
-im tired.........
-LOLOL what would happen if i gave these two seniors regular coffee after they've asked for decaf XDXD
-hmmmm....i wonder how fast this would melt in the fryer... =p
^ at leaset i found out how fast plastic bags melt in the fryer =)
-HEY LOOK! its Li-Annes mom! how funny would it be if Li-Anne came too =]
-AWW SHIT! i know them those people. gotta hide!! but cant......>.<
-wowww....you're calling yourself a fatty yet your still eating macdonalds...wtf!?
-what would be a good come back if i got into a fight with a customer
-shit! times go by the slowest during your last hour at work.
-IM OFFFFF!!! PCE OUT BITCHES!!

so yeah, those are pretty much just some of my thought. believe me...i have sooo much more. think about it, 8 hours..you can just let your mind wonder.

and yeah, i just got a msg saying you are really sure you can make our "date" on dec 21st. i am soooo happy and i really hope you stick to your word. im really exceting now, dont get me down ^^

everything

yesterday was a very good day. i went to the law courts at mainstreet and saw real trials and courts and stuff. i went with a girl that i had a giant crush on last year. it was really awesome spending the whole school day with her. i dont like her anymore otherwise i woulda tried to hold her hand or hug her because it was kinda cold out. i found that being with her was better than the actual court =) we then bought pizza from commercial and brought the whole thing back to school and we skipped block D and just ate pizza in the caf xD then some idiot motherfucker had to go to class and totally screw me over... =/

so today i found out that i am getting 5 A's for sure. im pretty happy. this means i'll get $50 from sure from my parents. i worked...hard for my A's =P there was a psychology project that totally fcked all the students who took that class up. holy shit, it was an intense amount of work...i worked all weekend and some more after just to hand it in today morning.

not too much problems now. just my stupid sister kathy wont shut the hell up and stop being stupid and annoying. and my dad is having his man period everyday. my mom is noce but kinda nosey now. my littlest sister is just there. eh, it could be worse.

oh yeah, i saw a 1990 nissan skyline gtr r32 on lougheed highway today. awesome!!!! ^^ thats it for now. i guess i'll post when i have more time, or when i feel like it.

at school

the only reason i am at school at...3:16 still is that my sister made the basketball team. my mom thought it would be a a good idea to have me stay here and do homework until she is finished her practice. her practice starts at 5:00 pm...and i dont know how long it goes till. it is freezing outside and pouring rain. i have to go home in that weather..with my sister =.= why does the practice has to start so late?? why not start at 3:15 and end at 5:30? maybe then i wouldnt have to complain so much. but holy shizz i dont wanna stay here for like 4 or more hours just doing homework and shit. at least i'll get a whole chunk done. thats one positive side to this.
i got grounded from the computer for 2 weeks..so i cant go home and watch yu-gi-oh. i would go home homework free =D
thats the end of my complaining. talk to you....when i can get a hold of another computer, or sneak on at home xD

"when im feeling blue, all i have to do, is take a look at you, then im not so blue"

yu-gi-oh obessed again?? 0.o

so umm, i've been aching for a yu-gi-oh duel!!! >.< i know its totally outdated now but holy shit, after watching all those old episodes on youtube, i've been bothering the shit out of my sisters to have them play yu-gi-oh with me =( they always so no tell tell me to go away ='( but holy crap, you have no idea. im tempted to go to school and ask everyone to play me. i use to be sooo good at that game but after years and years of not playing it, i suck now. but im sure if i play some more, i'll be so pro again xD just when i thought that i've matured, i start watching and playing again... alls i wanna do now is march my ass to crystal mall and buy all those old cards..even if i cant play with anyone. dark magician...red eyes black dragon...blue eyes white dragon....omg.. DAMN!!! anyways, when my littlest sister comes home, i will bug her to play with me. if she doesnt...well, i'll try to make her xDxD

other than that, i missed yet another sweet 16 this weekend. it was my good friend jenny's. it looked and sounded like it was so much fun. frickk. i cant believe i missed 4 people's sweet 16s in less than a month.

i have three tests next week..time to study. physics, math, and law
x.x dooomed..and still wanna watch that old cartoon ='(

"It's time to d-d-d-d-d-d-duel!! *music*"

whats going on?

im bored as hell right now, and suprised that i have kept this blog going =) it still looks crappy and plain but i have had some friends that offered to teach my how to jazz things up but i think im just gunna leave it the way it is. it doesnt have to be fancy like everyone elses. it just has to have posts. im trying my best to get one post a day...but its not working out too well.

SOOOOO first off, for the past week, alls i've done is watch the original Yu-Gi-Oh episodes starting from Pegasus' Castle battles with the Star Chips =D its sooo awesome. the last time i watched those same episodes was like 6 years ago xD finished that part, the part where they go to the virtual world to save the Kaiba brothers, and now Yugi is battling with the Dungeon Dice Monsters xD i know im a nerd but hey, its my childhood show =) that and Power Ranger Mighty Morphin Ranger series. cant wait till i get to the part with Kaiba's blimp and all the shadow games =)=)

haha you said that the pie i baked on tueaday looked good, so what did i do..?? i baked you one =) i even put your initials on it =D but what do you do, you take a few bites and give it all away =( i as a little disappointed bcuz it was for you >.< good =")">

math is soooo gay right now. fck the graphs and parabolas and polynomial functions. when the hell am i even gunna apply this in real life?? physics math might be harder but at least i can picture it and its useful..math shit isnt =/

oh yeahh, my sister Kathy made the school basketball team. congragulations kathy, now we know mountain wont win. XDXD just kidding, but really, congrats sis =D

"I remember, when i met you, all the stars were hanging in the air. in this moment, nothing mattered, but the way you caught me in your stare"

my sister's FML story

so haha my sister kathy was going to club aviva in block C. she left right at lunch with her friends but still missed her bus at braid station. LOL =D it was also pouring rain so i laughed when she told me. then, they asked another friend how to get there. the guy said some random stuff and they followed his direction. then, they got lost. they were walking along soe really busy street and then this huge truch went by and totally drenched them =D oh yea, there were like over 10 of them so it was really funny. then after, they caught the bus and went towards aviva. they got there, and to top off their "good" luck, they slipped on a huge mud pile and fell down the hill. =D=D=D=D=D=D woww, i laughed soooo hard when she told me. they jumped on the trampoline for like 2 seconds then had to go back. FHL (eff her life) xDxD
this made my day =]

make it break it.

long time no post

so i was having pizza with a good friend of mine and i discussed that the problem that involved you. i talked how careless you are about trying to see me. i talked about how much effort i am making just to see you. i said that everytime i try to see you, it seems like you make up some shitty excuse to not see me. like i said, i am always willing to go to you, if you are too busy to come to me. you wont even come of a sec to see me after almost 4 years. im getting very tired of that and its upsetting me. my friend asks me: "if you're doing all this to see her and shes acting the way she is, is it worth going through all that trouble?" i said, "i've waited so long. it cant hurt to wait just a little more" and its true. i HAVE waited very long. it seems like all the days i have planned for us to meet is discarded by you. so, this is why i have made this last date. i told my friend, "i have made this last date as a last attempt to see her. december 21, first monday of winter break. if for some reason she doesnt show up, that is when i spend no more time thinking of you anymore. that is when i turn away from her and say fuck it." my friend hears this and asks me, "so, that date for you is pretty much just for her to make it or break it right?" i thought about it. it was totally correct. thats exactly how i feel. make it or break it. i dont have much faith anymore of you showing up. you've let me down too many times. so thi is it. if you do decide to break it, i'll know every effort i have tried to bring us together has been wasted. everything, gone. thanks for talking to me friend =) if not for you, who knows how much longer i would kept chasing the moon.

"in a moment we could lose everything, lets talk about this somewhere only we know"

bitching about homework

omfg....im finally done law homework, and physics homework which was 2 labs was totally brutal... soooo many steps and graphing, and all that jazz =( but its mostly done now. physics quiz tomorrow. and i also finished mu PE leadership homework, which was due last week. holy shit! im gunna say it again. why da fckk is our school giving all the pe leadership students homework and actual classes??? i have to go into school at 7:30...wowwwwwww..lame. no other school does that shizz.
and baking homework, what a fcken joke. seriously, i already have the recipe and now i gotta write the whole fcking thing out again?? to my teachers format? no fcking way! whats with all these pointless homework assignments huhh?? honestly..what good is it to copy out somethingp perfectly fine?? >=( stupid baking teacher and her homework. damn, mudafckah stupid!! barely even started yet... oh jeeze... fricken sucks..
there, im done my bitching on stupid homework assignments for now. thanks for listening. good night, im going to school early tmr for another pointless lesson and more pe leadership homework.

early dismissal

sooo... today at school we had early dismisal and we got out at 12:10. it was great because it was a day 1 and i hate day 1's. after school i helped my friends and mrs. byrne put up the socials studies bulliten. after that, i just randomly walked with my friends uptowards lougheed and when we got to a bus stop and saw the bus, me and amanda took the bus home together, even though she lives closer than me. i get home just as my dad's about to go outside. i am home alone now =)so im blasting TRANCE!! and some peurto rican songs frikkkken loud =) it sounds sooo nice. i know which speakers to buy now for my new room =]

yesterday was pretty much total crap but got wayyy better after about 6 pm. i talked to my 2 very good friends wendy and landy and they totally cheered me up. a little bit of cappacino and talking with my mom helped.

soo, i thot i'd provide a few trance that will totally take you away.
-trip to paradise
-raver's fantacy
-dj boyler-keep on moving]
-primary disease
-melody from heaven

so lets say you're bored one day and have nothing to do, check out those songs. they're amazing, and even better if blasted like crazy =)


"Just smile for me, would you be down for me, would you be around for me, im your loverr"

its funny how things work out in the end..

heyyyyy everyone!!! so im in a helluva good mood right now. i have my reasons why =) today started out sooooo very shitty. woke up, felt like shit, then one sister goes to a bday party and the other one went to metro and hung out. even my dad went to richmond with his friends and i stayed home all alone and did homework. then i started to talk to wendy on msn and everything was a little bit better but still felt really bad. then i went to costco and came back and made french vanilla and nesquik mixed together and it tasted grea =) then i finally talked to my mom whos whos in taiwan getting lazer eye surgery on the phone and i felt so much better after. she told me what she bought for me and i was super cheered up after =D. when my dad got home, he took me out for sushi and sashimi =O im so suprised cuz this is like the first time we actually talked since halloween. obviously the sushi was great. thenn, my good friend ray gave us both a wonderful idea for school. i love it and i think it will be very very successful. good luck to both of us, and we'll see who's laughing when it does work

"Do you remember, a kiss under the moonlight,back when it was summer, it was love at first sight, and can you remember, cuz i feel the same now, right through the winter, we'll see blooming this love"

lies

i've lied about a lot of stuff. i've lied to many people, but mostly to myself. some lies are not so serious. some were very serious and can hurt people very badly if they found out. one day, i will tell them and come clean. i need to straiten myself out because i cant keep doing this.

"I've still got your face, painted on my heart, scrowed upon my soul, etched across my memories baby and i got your kiss, still burning on my lips, the touch of our finger tips, this love so deep inside of me, baby"

dont get to do anything

still in trouble with my dad, and i dont get to go anywhere tmr (rememberance day holiday), thursday (half day) or friday (another half day). what i did on halloween was definatly not worth it. those stupid 2 hours has ruined everything for me. trust, gone. fun, gone. everything, gone. i hope i will be able to go out around at christmas break bcuz i already planned it with someone to meet then on december 21st, the first monday of the winter break. i havent seen for for almost 3 years now and i really want to. if i dont get to see her, then im gunna be realllllllly pissed off. like, 'you wont even beieve it' pissed off. even though i have no more feelings for her anymore, i still want to see her very very badly and catch up on three years that went by.

so, i have been pretty good about keeping my feelings to myself. if i supress it for long enough, maybe it will be gone. i think its worked. i usually supress it cuz i have bad luck with that stuff -__- blehhh. its good to think that this went by unnoticed. maybe its not gone but im just telling myself its gone so i can get over it. either way, there is nothing good or bad that will change my feelings towards other ppl. so bottom line, if it doesnt work out, i'll be mad at myself for a second, and get on with my life.

and just saying: my blog loooks wayy too plain. dont know how to fix it up but whatever.

shopping list 101

im moving soon so im retiring a bunch of my old stuff. last week while i was throwing out and donating lots of my old stuff, it was sad to see it all go away cuz i;ve had it for so long and even though i might not have worn it, or used it in a while, it still had sentimental value to me...but it was all too much to bring with me so i gave them all away. wow...i almost got emotional...but didnt =) i looked forward to buying new stuff to fill my new room, which is about 1/3 the size of my room now =( at least it will me roomy and cozy. the following is a bunch of stuff i need to buy.

-speakers
-headphones
-radio/cd player
-minifridge (maybe; not likely cuz parents probably wont allow)
-a stocked shelve full of snacks
-awesome curtains
-an amazing car poster (maybe 2, or 3.....maybe cover my whole wall)
-a few gundam seed/wing and car models i can build myself
-new clothes for my closet (definatly) =)
-a laptop than im buying in christmass!!!! =D
-car tint for my windows xD probably be soooo cool. maybe...40%?

thats everything i can think of right now. i know there was a lot more but... this is it for now i guess.. i shall one by one get everything eventually =D

downwards spiral.

so because of halloween incedent, i became super grounded and therefor, i had to miss two of my good friend's sweet 16s. i mean, wtf??? what kinda shitty luck is that? 2 sweet 16's on the same weekend and i had to miss both?? anyways, i made the 'best' out of a bad situation because i already booked saturday off work, so i pretty much had free with from 7am-3pm. i decided not to tell me dad that i didnt have work so i 'went' to work. i stopped at jenny's house, called daniel out. we waited for jenny but then decided to go to tim hortons at lougheed instead. after, we came back to jenny's house and her mom made us another breakfast there. it was great! then, we went to daniels house. i played Medal of Honor with jenny and won =D then we left for shabrina's birthday party. i only help to set up and stuff but missed the whole actual party. when i left our friends were just coming =( half way through helping setting up, fucking stupid dumbass macdonalds has to call my house and ask if i could work. wow....good fucking job guys, i booked the day off and you still call my house.. -____- so anyways, my dad found out i didnt have work and he told me to get home right away. when i got home, i got into more trouble...bleh. i blame macdonalds.
but today, i completely missed ALL of wendy's sweet 16 =( i will make it up by doing a video for her. gotta get creative again.

school and such

so i found out today that im actually getting 86% in my psychology class!! BUT...i screwed up a quiz today at 8/15 and i got 27/35 on a presentation....fcukk!!!!!!! i worked so hard for that 86% and now its gunna be like 80... ='( we have about 50 marks up for grabs before the term's over so....i gotta work hard >.<

in math, we're learning quadratic equations and parabolas and stuff... we had a unit test on that today and what i knew, i knew really well but i forgot to study a whole section!!! so.. the best i can get now is about 22/28......cuz i left the spaces blank. i really need the highest mark i can get in math right now...plus our teacher is crazy.

in engrish, im actually getting 96%!! holy shit, i suck at engrish and i somehow managed to pull a 96%?? =O thats pretty awesome. in french, i think im getting about 84%...not too bad considering i hate and suck at french.

schools hard, lifes hard, ahh, i need something BIG to just come out at me now and just cheer me up..still hoping.

what if..?

i know i probably owe you like, 543534 good night hugs now, but what if i dont wanna wait till the next time we see eachother? what if i wanna give them to you now? what if i tell you? what if you dont feel the same? what if this ruins our friendship? what if you did feel the same? what if it was all good? what if, what if, what if....=/

its hard keeping it in...finally telling it

do you know how much i like you? how much i love you? of course not. i havent told you yet. i havent told you for....a VERY VERY long time. i've had enough now. i always try to make time to see you. i even told you i'll go and visit you because you live so far away, you you still say you're too busy for me. you wont even take a few hours to see me after not seeing eachother for that long? its been crazy for me trying to have us see eachother and i've waited enough now. i cant say that the time i've waited was a waste, because it's not. i've learned that waiting can hurt someone really bad. i know you dont realize this and its partially my fault for not telling you but what can i do? you never have the time to talk. this is something serious and its not like i can just tell you this over facebook. i havent seen you for almost three years now, and i miss you so much. im afraid i dont love you anymore, and i've already moved on. i cant believe months ago i was still crazy about you, just like i had been for the last 3 year...and all of a sudden i realized i cant go on like this. i have to let you go now. i kinda want to know what you feel, or felt about me though.. i guess i'll never know. now, i just want to say goodbye, and tell you the last three years of my life that involved any thought of you, was painful.

so, where's the end of this shit tunnel?

so on saturday, as some of you might now, i went to a halloween party that eventually for out of control. everything i didnt there i regret now. i friend told me before i went there to "not do thything i'll regret" and at that time, i didnt listen because i thought i could control myself.
i didnt..and whats worse, i dragged another friend into this mess with me. i told him to come to this party with me and he did. we both got into the biggest shit of our lives. without going into all the details again, i put him in so much danger...
the details of the party, i dont remember anything. another friend told me about an unfortunate incedent that happened with me and someone else. i wont say what but that resulted badly.
my dad is neglecting to talk to me now because he is too dissapointed. my mom's not here right now but i know when she comes back, she will be just as furious.
this was probably the worse decision of my life..and i apologize to the friend that i brought to the party for getting him into this mess.

School

So...im at school in block A and im on blogspot. OMG SO COOOLL!!!!!
........not.

Some of my favourites

Soo, here are some songs and movies that i really like and think you will enjoy as well.

Movies:
The Lakehouse/ Il Mare (Korean version)
Armmegadon
Top Gun
Gladiator
A Walk to Remember
Terminator 1,2&4
The Godfather (all)
Wanted
Wall-E
Law Abiding Citizen
The Dark Knight

Music:
La Luna- Belinda
Ravers Fantacy (all remixes)
Waves- DJ Satomi
Meet me halfway- Black Eyed Peas
Halo-Beyonce
What you got- Colby O Donis
Almost ALL Masrai songs
Painted on my Heart- The Cult

Bunch of randoms

so um, yesterday, i got a brand new phone imported from taiwan!! =D its dark purple and its very shiny. i know, it might be girly but its not! i love it. it has so much functions on it but i cant reald the stupid chinese manual so i dont know whats on it

pe, good news. finally the soccer unit it over. we have wrestling next and as promised, i am going to wrestle li-anne who is gunna be kissing a lot of floor when i pin her down and win =)

yet. im still discovering how to use it properly. yayyy!!
this past week has been hard. i dont understand the new concept in math so i'll have to ask for extra help....frickk i hate asking for help.
im buying 15 home made cupcakes from christine tomrrow =D it is for her kenya humanuties trip she wants to go to summer 2010. i really hope she gets to go and do what she is so passionate about doing for the past year. the easter cupcakes were good =p i will pick them up tomorrow
hmm, i know i like you now. even more than before. this is not good..i dont know what to do. i liked you for some time now, but something happened and i had my doubts. but now, im doubting my doubt. maybe it can still work. frickk why cant telling someone you like them face to face be as easy as msn or facebook. like i said, i never have good luck with these things so i think i've decided to keep it to myself and pretend nothings happened and remain the same so i wont screw up our friendship. maybe this is worse than telling then you like them over msn or facebook but too bad! dont know what to do.
fawk, pe leadership class tmr. gotta be at school at 7:30. why the fck is it that everyother school doesnt have a REAL class for pe leadership and mountain does huhh?? its so annoying...we actually get homework..=.=
you might be wondering where are my stories. maybe not BUT they will be here next month =) soo...yeah. i hope you enjoy.
good night, byee

Could it be?

While i was doing homework today, i was also on msn and stuff and well, i was sooo happy to see your window pop up to talk to me. thats weird cuz i didnt think i liked you but this could mean something. really? i dont know, and i doubt it but it was a sudden rush of happyness when i saw your name and my whole world lit up for that one second. i dont get happy like that when i see anyone elses name..hmm. i hope i'm wrong cuz i never have good luck with people i like so i'll probably end up not saying anything anyways and it will just pass like nothings happened.
we'll see ;)

Past week

SO my week was pretty boring. Actually, everything about this website has been pretty boring sooo...I have decided to work on this blogging thing with another person =D
She is a much more smart and creative person than me. She will jazz things up and make it look a lot nicer than it already is..which isnt that hard to begin with.
So i went to lazer tag on friday, it was pretty great. I got 5th the first game and 1st the second game =D Last time I played, I got 1st on both games, so I guess this was a disapprovement but whatever, I had fun.
Before that, I ate sushi with Chance and Dalraj on Kingsway and talked about our plan to blow
-the thing- up on halloween bcuz we have been at was with -the thing- since grade 5.
I think it will be successful bcuz we have it all planned...just need the firepower now =/ shouldnt be too hard to come by. After, we played Mario Kart Wii, and i totally sucked at it. I will improve.
then yeah, went to lazer tag.
On saturday, I just worked...

Just a thought

THE ONLY THING THAT WENT THROUGH MY MIND WHEN I SAW THAT WAS "WHAT A FUCKING DUMB BITCH" There, I said it. That made me feel better.

My other blogging thingy

Hey guys, if you're here, thanks for coming. I'm still trying to organize everything for my
viewer(s). I will be shortly writing my stories that my friend Landy said were good. I hope she's not tricking me because that would make me look like an idiot. So I've done all my homework for this week, I told my sister Kathy to hide my PSP until i was done and it worked, I finished everything in two hours.
For those who care, my faux hawk is finally growing back, after getting it ALL cut off a month ago =D
I hope you guys are checking out my Facebook videos. I think they're quite entertaining. I hope you guys are having as much fun watching them as I am making them.
Yeah, good night guys, make sure to check out my Facebook videos and drop a comment alright? ^^

Blogspot...you lagger >.<

Blogspot, you are stupid. Why are you so slow at uploading my videos? Even when you are done, why do you go so slow? Like, my visuals will be playing at one speed and my audio will be different. Are you stupid? It would have been soo much easier if you would just let me put a video to each post, but instead, you are making my viewers come here, and then Facebook. You are gunna drive my fans away because they will be annoyed.
Its ok blogspot. I forgive you. If there are no videos here, then my fans will read my stuff more thoroughly. I guess thats one good way to look at it.
Anywhom, I have uploaded another video onto facebook with the jacket I bought from Forever XXI.
Please enjoy, and no mean comments.
-JHT

Awesome day at Metro =)

So, I lost a bet wayyyy back in September to one of my PE leadership students who is now my friend, Erika. She said if she made the team, then I would have to owe her something. I agreed to it because I didn't know her back then. She made the team. As happy as I was for her, I had to owe her something. It took time to think about it then I came up with the idea of us going to Metrotown, get lunch, take sticker pictures, and I would have to try on girls neon tights O.o
Believe me, I was scared. So we went, this Saturday the 17th. I had a lot of fun. We talked about lots of things and found out little things that we have in common. It was good talking. We watched a movie first. It's called Law Abiding Citizen. I loved it, I've seen the previews and really wanted to see it. Im glad Erika liked it too. I would have felt bad if I made her sit through a two hour movie that she didn't like.
After that, we walked around for a bit. We saw some random guy signing autographs in Metro and he looked so lame. Only like five people were in line to get his autograph. I almost felt bad for the kid, but whatever. No one knew who he was..I doubt the people who wanted his autograph didn't know who he is either xD
After that, we went to American Apparel for my doomed fate, BUT, instead we saw these shirts that said Aa, or Bb, or Zz...you get the point. So Erika and I ended up getting matching shirts.
Then we went to CHQ and took sticker pictures. It was my 3rd time in my life I took those, and the 1st time I actually got to decorate it. I got TOO carried away and ended up making a mess with all my stamps and squigily lines XD It was very fun though
After, we went to Forever XXI. It's a nice store but there are 2 floors full of girls apparel and 1 time cornor for guys stuff. I found this dress jacket that goes very well with my dress shirt, dress pants, and dress shoes, so I bought it. We walked around some more and got to know eachother a little better. After talking, I went with Erika back to Lougheed. I made good timing back to Sperling and only waited 5 minutes for my bus. All in all, a very good day.
*BIG thanks for not having me dress up in girls neon tights, Erika. Very VERY appreciate it =D

Sooo..

First off, this is like my 5th time doing something like this. It has never been successful in all my life of attempted blogging. I've done Freewebs, Hotmail, Twitter and Picso. I think I'm not destined to blog about anything but hey, what the hell right? If I fail, I'll leave a mark on the blogspot database. That's the way I see it.
I have no idea how to use this. This looks super complicated, not as bad as Picso though.
Whaooo.. there's an auto save to this thing? I just saw it, thats cool.
I just realized how girly my profile for this thing looks...it didnt look this femine when I was selecting the layout and stuff. My friend said I have a creative side and should embrace it. I don't see anthing creative about this. I agreed to this anyways, to give my blogging skills yet another chance.
I don't even know what to talk about. Its not like my life is interesting or anything.
I think I will write stories. Another friend said I was good at that. Mostly, I will write random things.
Yeah, sounds like a good idea to me. I'll write things that I will look back and remember. Please stay tuned for my next blog, whenever that may be. Be patient. Below is my video I made. Enjoy!
-JHT