Thursday, December 24, 2009

today

sooooo, chirstmas eve, how we all doing? im doing super great. blowing off some steam yesterday night with the long ass post telling blogspot about how i feel is great. those shit dont phase me anymore and are no longer my problem. forget and move on.

today, i went on a major shopping spree with my friend. i bought a pair of new white pumas, black nike's shox air, new hoodie, season one of the X-Files, and steak knives. a few days ago, i bought a new PSP game and a touch screen music player. spending money and buying stuff makes me feel all better. and of course we talked about..stuff and its been a great day.

so my sister kathy got a new cell phone today. its sooooooo cool. completly touch screen and looks sooo wicked. im jealous of that dumb little person now =/ haha, just kidding but yeah, it is a really nice phone and she got it for 0$ and it came with the plan. she also pays less than me for a plan and gets more cool stuff like 1000 texts and unlimited weekends and weekdays after 6. damn... i dont got any of that. i bought her a formal blouse thing from banana republic as her christmas gift. so after all my shopping today, i forgot to buy my youngest sister something =O i forgot about her so hopefully i have a good excuse to give her something later.

today totally makes up for the crappy mood i was in yesterday.
happy holidays everyone!

too many things on my mind for a single title

first things first, moving is a hassle. we moved to our new house last week and it was very hard work. i got chance, daniel and tyson to help me move a whole shitload of boxes from my old house to my new house. that took like 3 hours. then we had pizza. now, our new house is still under revovations. we painted most of the rooms but most of our stuff is still in boxes downstairs. my sisters room is completly down. it looks really nice. my older sister wanted purple but the paint our parents got her turned out to be pink! haha!! my other sister wanted light blue and she got exactly that. my room? omg...you'll have to see it to explain it. i cant describe it but if you ever get the chance to see it, you'll understand. so yeah, my dad's been busy putting up curtains all day and painting and i kinda feel bad cuz my sisters and i are just watching tv. whenever i ask if i can help, he just says 'not now' so i guess theres nothing i can do.

hmm, you remember the 'break it of make it post'? yeah. you chose to break it. okay, thats alright with me. i promised myself that this would be the last time this will happen and i will keep that promise to myself. its gone, over, through. thanks for proving this was a waste of four years of hoping. i did learn something though. dont hold on to anything too long. it will be gone anyway. i really did love you. you were a huge part of my life even though you didnt know it. you know, you're what keeps me going when im at my lowest. i think of you and then i actually smile. now, what should i smile to? your gone, out of my life now. im never going to approach you again. i promised myself to think of you as a stranger now. we were great friends, lets see how long before you talk to me if i dont talk to you first. lets hope by that time i'll be completly over you and wont be at all excited to hear from you, like the way i am now. cya, talk to you never

i've been grounded even since the halloween party. couldnt go out, couldnt hang out or anything. and finally i convinced my parents to let me hang out with you. everytime before we hang out, its always been...dissapointing. we never talk about stuff, and we always end up being pissed at eachother somehow. its fun talking on msn and stuff but whenever we talk face to face, some shit always come up and holy fuck, im always angry after hanging out. so two days ago, i thought i'd just hang out. maybe somethings changed. guess what, not a fucking thing has changed. and what the FUCKS! up with hitting me with your umbrelly??? are you trying to tell me something?? just fucking come out and say it. just cuz i dont spazz out at you or say shit about it doesnt give you the right to do shit like that. i even said, 'stop it, its kinda bugging me' and you dont even listen and keep doing it. okok, maybe i usually kid around and you probably thought hitting me was a game too but when i say stop, come on, just stop. you couldnt tell how shit-faced i was? and whats worse, i even asked you if the other people coming is ok with me hanging out with you guys. you said they didnt mind. are you sure? they seem to not want be there. thats a fucking shitting feeling to know you're not wanted somewhere. the other two guys left earlier than i did. they're smart. it was a waste of time with you guys anyway but i stuck around like a fucking loser. then after, what happened? you three started to walk without even telling me you're going so i followed. you didnt even turn back to tell when where you're going and just completly ignored me. what the fuck was that about huh? do you know how i felt to be ditched like that bye three people, one being someone that invited to to this thing? so i just left and looked at what i wanted to look at. today, you post on my facebook wall complaining about me leaving you guys without saying bye. ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS??? YOU FUCKING STRAIGHT UP DITCHED ME AND YOU STILL HAVE THE FUCKING GUTS TO BE SAD THAT I DIDNT SAY BYE? holy shit, i almost didnt even believe my eyes when i saw that post..DO YOU EVEN GIVE A SHIT? or are you trying to make me feel bad. cuz uh, news flash, i dont give a shit about that. these days, i dont give a shit about anything anymore.

maybe thats my fault too, i'll admit. i keep too much shit to myself. i dont open to anyone. becasue of my past experiences, i have trust issues now. im afraid to tell anyone anything. its hard to trust people cuz some people will just use it against you in the future. because of this, i lost out on so many things. i really wish sometimes i can have someone to tell everything too. i envy the people who have that one person who they can tell anything to. how do you find someone like that? isnt it hard to trust someone completly with your secrets?? if i had someone like that, i think my life will be so much easier cuz then i wont keep everything bottled inside me. sometimes, i actually think i could explode and fucking break someones face in half. the only thing that calms me down when im like that is crying. its a complete sign of weakness i know but by that time, i dont care. im just focused on not letting another person piss me off or i think he's gunna end up in a hospital. so squeeze out a few tears, cry for a sec, not let anyone see you and its all good. i've been crying more that usual which kind sucks. more and more bad things are happening. im still wondering what can bring me real joy. actually, i think i know but im not gunna say. its not...innapropriate stuff -.- but if i say it, it will make me sound like a selfish son of a bitch.

facebook you fucking faggot. why wont you work for me? when kathy goes on, she can do everything. when i sign on, i cant post anything, accept anything, or change anything. you're fucking pathetic


on a happier note, my sisters getting a cell phone tmr. im excited for her =D i remember when i first got me own celly so i can understand her happiness when she's getting one too. and christmas is coming. boxing day follows. im glad because christmas usually is joy and happy. boxing day is great to look at stuff and buy what i really want. tomorow im gunna hang with my friend chance and go looking for stuff. im gunna look for the stuff i wanna buy on boxing day so on the 26th, i can just buy it and not try anything on.

i think abou lots of stuff when bad shit does wrong. when the world gets you down, turn your back on the world, say fuck it, and go on. put on your game face, dont give a shit about what other people say, do your own thing. if they give you advice you dont wanna hear, fuck them. your only regret is what you didnt do, not what you did. if you fuck up, who cares, hrug at it, no big deal. you caused it, you solve it. think it fast, be impulsive. remember thats what you wanted to do at the time. dont think things through, you'll only regret not doing it at the time. consequences will pass, your experience will stay with you forever. learn from it and do it again. fail agian, learn from it some more.
^ i know, not the best thought right before christmas day but its true.

have a happy holiday, i hope its better than mine.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

curry chicken

first i wanna say. eating curry and rice after midnight is a garaunteed win. curry is so damn good but tastes better at night. and im excited for dec. 21st

Saturday, December 5, 2009

stuff to talk aboot

being at work every saturday from 7am-3pm really starts to get boring after a while. getting up at 5:30 to hop on a bus and go all the way the hell to lougheed is cold, tiring, and boring. while there, its freezing cuz theres freezers everywhere and then it gets hot cuz there are fryers everywhere. its totally gross. so while there, sometimes, i have a few random thoughts that pop into my head. i thought i'd list them out:

-DAMN that girl is hot.
-HOLY SHIT STOP EATING MACDONALDS IF YOUR LOOKING LIKE THAT, cant even fit into a booth thing...
-i gotta sneeze, but it looks bad sneezing in front of ppl
-i gotta blow my nose!! and theres a huge line >.>
-I GOTTA TAKE A SHIT!!! (LOL just kidding)
-im tired.........
-LOLOL what would happen if i gave these two seniors regular coffee after they've asked for decaf XDXD
-hmmmm....i wonder how fast this would melt in the fryer... =p
^ at leaset i found out how fast plastic bags melt in the fryer =)
-HEY LOOK! its Li-Annes mom! how funny would it be if Li-Anne came too =]
-AWW SHIT! i know them those people. gotta hide!! but cant......>.<
-wowww....you're calling yourself a fatty yet your still eating macdonalds...wtf!?
-what would be a good come back if i got into a fight with a customer
-shit! times go by the slowest during your last hour at work.
-IM OFFFFF!!! PCE OUT BITCHES!!

so yeah, those are pretty much just some of my thought. believe me...i have sooo much more. think about it, 8 hours..you can just let your mind wonder.

and yeah, i just got a msg saying you are really sure you can make our "date" on dec 21st. i am soooo happy and i really hope you stick to your word. im really exceting now, dont get me down ^^

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

everything

yesterday was a very good day. i went to the law courts at mainstreet and saw real trials and courts and stuff. i went with a girl that i had a giant crush on last year. it was really awesome spending the whole school day with her. i dont like her anymore otherwise i woulda tried to hold her hand or hug her because it was kinda cold out. i found that being with her was better than the actual court =) we then bought pizza from commercial and brought the whole thing back to school and we skipped block D and just ate pizza in the caf xD then some idiot motherfucker had to go to class and totally screw me over... =/

so today i found out that i am getting 5 A's for sure. im pretty happy. this means i'll get $50 from sure from my parents. i worked...hard for my A's =P there was a psychology project that totally fcked all the students who took that class up. holy shit, it was an intense amount of work...i worked all weekend and some more after just to hand it in today morning.

not too much problems now. just my stupid sister kathy wont shut the hell up and stop being stupid and annoying. and my dad is having his man period everyday. my mom is noce but kinda nosey now. my littlest sister is just there. eh, it could be worse.

oh yeah, i saw a 1990 nissan skyline gtr r32 on lougheed highway today. awesome!!!! ^^ thats it for now. i guess i'll post when i have more time, or when i feel like it.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

at school

the only reason i am at school at...3:16 still is that my sister made the basketball team. my mom thought it would be a a good idea to have me stay here and do homework until she is finished her practice. her practice starts at 5:00 pm...and i dont know how long it goes till. it is freezing outside and pouring rain. i have to go home in that weather..with my sister =.= why does the practice has to start so late?? why not start at 3:15 and end at 5:30? maybe then i wouldnt have to complain so much. but holy shizz i dont wanna stay here for like 4 or more hours just doing homework and shit. at least i'll get a whole chunk done. thats one positive side to this.
i got grounded from the computer for 2 weeks..so i cant go home and watch yu-gi-oh. i would go home homework free =D
thats the end of my complaining. talk to you....when i can get a hold of another computer, or sneak on at home xD


"when im feeling blue, all i have to do, is take a look at you, then im not so blue"

Sunday, November 22, 2009

yu-gi-oh obessed again?? 0.o

so umm, i've been aching for a yu-gi-oh duel!!! >.< i know its totally outdated now but holy shit, after watching all those old episodes on youtube, i've been bothering the shit out of my sisters to have them play yu-gi-oh with me =( they always so no tell tell me to go away ='( but holy crap, you have no idea. im tempted to go to school and ask everyone to play me. i use to be sooo good at that game but after years and years of not playing it, i suck now. but im sure if i play some more, i'll be so pro again xD just when i thought that i've matured, i start watching and playing again... alls i wanna do now is march my ass to crystal mall and buy all those old cards..even if i cant play with anyone. dark magician...red eyes black dragon...blue eyes white dragon....omg.. DAMN!!! anyways, when my littlest sister comes home, i will bug her to play with me. if she doesnt...well, i'll try to make her xDxD

other than that, i missed yet another sweet 16 this weekend. it was my good friend jenny's. it looked and sounded like it was so much fun. frickk. i cant believe i missed 4 people's sweet 16s in less than a month.

i have three tests next week..time to study. physics, math, and law
x.x dooomed..and still wanna watch that old cartoon ='(

"It's time to d-d-d-d-d-d-duel!! *music*"

Thursday, November 19, 2009

whats going on?

im bored as hell right now, and suprised that i have kept this blog going =) it still looks crappy and plain but i have had some friends that offered to teach my how to jazz things up but i think im just gunna leave it the way it is. it doesnt have to be fancy like everyone elses. it just has to have posts. im trying my best to get one post a day...but its not working out too well.

SOOOOO first off, for the past week, alls i've done is watch the original Yu-Gi-Oh episodes starting from Pegasus' Castle battles with the Star Chips =D its sooo awesome. the last time i watched those same episodes was like 6 years ago xD finished that part, the part where they go to the virtual world to save the Kaiba brothers, and now Yugi is battling with the Dungeon Dice Monsters xD i know im a nerd but hey, its my childhood show =) that and Power Ranger Mighty Morphin Ranger series. cant wait till i get to the part with Kaiba's blimp and all the shadow games =)=)

haha you said that the pie i baked on tueaday looked good, so what did i do..?? i baked you one =) i even put your initials on it =D but what do you do, you take a few bites and give it all away =( i as a little disappointed bcuz it was for you >.< good =")">

math is soooo gay right now. fck the graphs and parabolas and polynomial functions. when the hell am i even gunna apply this in real life?? physics math might be harder but at least i can picture it and its useful..math shit isnt =/

oh yeahh, my sister Kathy made the school basketball team. congragulations kathy, now we know mountain wont win. XDXD just kidding, but really, congrats sis =D

"I remember, when i met you, all the stars were hanging in the air. in this moment, nothing mattered, but the way you caught me in your stare"

Monday, November 16, 2009

my sister's FML story

so haha my sister kathy was going to club aviva in block C. she left right at lunch with her friends but still missed her bus at braid station. LOL =D it was also pouring rain so i laughed when she told me. then, they asked another friend how to get there. the guy said some random stuff and they followed his direction. then, they got lost. they were walking along soe really busy street and then this huge truch went by and totally drenched them =D oh yea, there were like over 10 of them so it was really funny. then after, they caught the bus and went towards aviva. they got there, and to top off their "good" luck, they slipped on a huge mud pile and fell down the hill. =D=D=D=D=D=D woww, i laughed soooo hard when she told me. they jumped on the trampoline for like 2 seconds then had to go back. FHL (eff her life) xDxD
this made my day =]

Sunday, November 15, 2009

make it break it.

long time no post

so i was having pizza with a good friend of mine and i discussed that the problem that involved you. i talked how careless you are about trying to see me. i talked about how much effort i am making just to see you. i said that everytime i try to see you, it seems like you make up some shitty excuse to not see me. like i said, i am always willing to go to you, if you are too busy to come to me. you wont even come of a sec to see me after almost 4 years. im getting very tired of that and its upsetting me. my friend asks me: "if you're doing all this to see her and shes acting the way she is, is it worth going through all that trouble?" i said, "i've waited so long. it cant hurt to wait just a little more" and its true. i HAVE waited very long. it seems like all the days i have planned for us to meet is discarded by you. so, this is why i have made this last date. i told my friend, "i have made this last date as a last attempt to see her. december 21, first monday of winter break. if for some reason she doesnt show up, that is when i spend no more time thinking of you anymore. that is when i turn away from her and say fuck it." my friend hears this and asks me, "so, that date for you is pretty much just for her to make it or break it right?" i thought about it. it was totally correct. thats exactly how i feel. make it or break it. i dont have much faith anymore of you showing up. you've let me down too many times. so thi is it. if you do decide to break it, i'll know every effort i have tried to bring us together has been wasted. everything, gone. thanks for talking to me friend =) if not for you, who knows how much longer i would kept chasing the moon.

"in a moment we could lose everything, lets talk about this somewhere only we know"

Thursday, November 12, 2009

bitching about homework

omfg....im finally done law homework, and physics homework which was 2 labs was totally brutal... soooo many steps and graphing, and all that jazz =( but its mostly done now. physics quiz tomorrow. and i also finished mu PE leadership homework, which was due last week. holy shit! im gunna say it again. why da fckk is our school giving all the pe leadership students homework and actual classes??? i have to go into school at 7:30...wowwwwwww..lame. no other school does that shizz.
and baking homework, what a fcken joke. seriously, i already have the recipe and now i gotta write the whole fcking thing out again?? to my teachers format? no fcking way! whats with all these pointless homework assignments huhh?? honestly..what good is it to copy out somethingp perfectly fine?? >=( stupid baking teacher and her homework. damn, mudafckah stupid!! barely even started yet... oh jeeze... fricken sucks..
there, im done my bitching on stupid homework assignments for now. thanks for listening. good night, im going to school early tmr for another pointless lesson and more pe leadership homework.

early dismissal

sooo... today at school we had early dismisal and we got out at 12:10. it was great because it was a day 1 and i hate day 1's. after school i helped my friends and mrs. byrne put up the socials studies bulliten. after that, i just randomly walked with my friends uptowards lougheed and when we got to a bus stop and saw the bus, me and amanda took the bus home together, even though she lives closer than me. i get home just as my dad's about to go outside. i am home alone now =)so im blasting TRANCE!! and some peurto rican songs frikkkken loud =) it sounds sooo nice. i know which speakers to buy now for my new room =]

yesterday was pretty much total crap but got wayyy better after about 6 pm. i talked to my 2 very good friends wendy and landy and they totally cheered me up. a little bit of cappacino and talking with my mom helped.

soo, i thot i'd provide a few trance that will totally take you away.
-trip to paradise
-raver's fantacy
-dj boyler-keep on moving]
-primary disease
-melody from heaven


so lets say you're bored one day and have nothing to do, check out those songs. they're amazing, and even better if blasted like crazy =)


"Just smile for me, would you be down for me, would you be around for me, im your loverr"

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

its funny how things work out in the end..

heyyyyy everyone!!! so im in a helluva good mood right now. i have my reasons why =) today started out sooooo very shitty. woke up, felt like shit, then one sister goes to a bday party and the other one went to metro and hung out. even my dad went to richmond with his friends and i stayed home all alone and did homework. then i started to talk to wendy on msn and everything was a little bit better but still felt really bad. then i went to costco and came back and made french vanilla and nesquik mixed together and it tasted grea =) then i finally talked to my mom whos whos in taiwan getting lazer eye surgery on the phone and i felt so much better after. she told me what she bought for me and i was super cheered up after =D. when my dad got home, he took me out for sushi and sashimi =O im so suprised cuz this is like the first time we actually talked since halloween. obviously the sushi was great. thenn, my good friend ray gave us both a wonderful idea for school. i love it and i think it will be very very successful. good luck to both of us, and we'll see who's laughing when it does work

"Do you remember, a kiss under the moonlight,back when it was summer, it was love at first sight, and can you remember, cuz i feel the same now, right through the winter, we'll see blooming this love"

lies

i've lied about a lot of stuff. i've lied to many people, but mostly to myself. some lies are not so serious. some were very serious and can hurt people very badly if they found out. one day, i will tell them and come clean. i need to straiten myself out because i cant keep doing this.

"I've still got your face, painted on my heart, scrowed upon my soul, etched across my memories baby and i got your kiss, still burning on my lips, the touch of our finger tips, this love so deep inside of me, baby"

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

dont get to do anything

still in trouble with my dad, and i dont get to go anywhere tmr (rememberance day holiday), thursday (half day) or friday (another half day). what i did on halloween was definatly not worth it. those stupid 2 hours has ruined everything for me. trust, gone. fun, gone. everything, gone. i hope i will be able to go out around at christmas break bcuz i already planned it with someone to meet then on december 21st, the first monday of the winter break. i havent seen for for almost 3 years now and i really want to. if i dont get to see her, then im gunna be realllllllly pissed off. like, 'you wont even beieve it' pissed off. even though i have no more feelings for her anymore, i still want to see her very very badly and catch up on three years that went by.

so, i have been pretty good about keeping my feelings to myself. if i supress it for long enough, maybe it will be gone. i think its worked. i usually supress it cuz i have bad luck with that stuff -__- blehhh. its good to think that this went by unnoticed. maybe its not gone but im just telling myself its gone so i can get over it. either way, there is nothing good or bad that will change my feelings towards other ppl. so bottom line, if it doesnt work out, i'll be mad at myself for a second, and get on with my life.

and just saying: my blog loooks wayy too plain. dont know how to fix it up but whatever.

shopping list 101

im moving soon so im retiring a bunch of my old stuff. last week while i was throwing out and donating lots of my old stuff, it was sad to see it all go away cuz i;ve had it for so long and even though i might not have worn it, or used it in a while, it still had sentimental value to me...but it was all too much to bring with me so i gave them all away. wow...i almost got emotional...but didnt =) i looked forward to buying new stuff to fill my new room, which is about 1/3 the size of my room now =( at least it will me roomy and cozy. the following is a bunch of stuff i need to buy.

-speakers
-headphones
-radio/cd player
-minifridge (maybe; not likely cuz parents probably wont allow)
-a stocked shelve full of snacks
-awesome curtains
-an amazing car poster (maybe 2, or 3.....maybe cover my whole wall)
-a few gundam seed/wing and car models i can build myself
-new clothes for my closet (definatly) =)
-a laptop than im buying in christmass!!!! =D
-car tint for my windows xD probably be soooo cool. maybe...40%?

thats everything i can think of right now. i know there was a lot more but... this is it for now i guess.. i shall one by one get everything eventually =D

Sunday, November 8, 2009

downwards spiral.

so because of halloween incedent, i became super grounded and therefor, i had to miss two of my good friend's sweet 16s. i mean, wtf??? what kinda shitty luck is that? 2 sweet 16's on the same weekend and i had to miss both?? anyways, i made the 'best' out of a bad situation because i already booked saturday off work, so i pretty much had free with from 7am-3pm. i decided not to tell me dad that i didnt have work so i 'went' to work. i stopped at jenny's house, called daniel out. we waited for jenny but then decided to go to tim hortons at lougheed instead. after, we came back to jenny's house and her mom made us another breakfast there. it was great! then, we went to daniels house. i played Medal of Honor with jenny and won =D then we left for shabrina's birthday party. i only help to set up and stuff but missed the whole actual party. when i left our friends were just coming =( half way through helping setting up, fucking stupid dumbass macdonalds has to call my house and ask if i could work. wow....good fucking job guys, i booked the day off and you still call my house.. -____- so anyways, my dad found out i didnt have work and he told me to get home right away. when i got home, i got into more trouble...bleh. i blame macdonalds.
but today, i completely missed ALL of wendy's sweet 16 =( i will make it up by doing a video for her. gotta get creative again.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

school and such

so i found out today that im actually getting 86% in my psychology class!! BUT...i screwed up a quiz today at 8/15 and i got 27/35 on a presentation....fcukk!!!!!!! i worked so hard for that 86% and now its gunna be like 80... ='( we have about 50 marks up for grabs before the term's over so....i gotta work hard >.<

in math, we're learning quadratic equations and parabolas and stuff... we had a unit test on that today and what i knew, i knew really well but i forgot to study a whole section!!! so.. the best i can get now is about 22/28......cuz i left the spaces blank. i really need the highest mark i can get in math right now...plus our teacher is crazy.

in engrish, im actually getting 96%!! holy shit, i suck at engrish and i somehow managed to pull a 96%?? =O thats pretty awesome. in french, i think im getting about 84%...not too bad considering i hate and suck at french.

schools hard, lifes hard, ahh, i need something BIG to just come out at me now and just cheer me up..still hoping.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

what if..?

i know i probably owe you like, 543534 good night hugs now, but what if i dont wanna wait till the next time we see eachother? what if i wanna give them to you now? what if i tell you? what if you dont feel the same? what if this ruins our friendship? what if you did feel the same? what if it was all good? what if, what if, what if....=/

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

its hard keeping it in...finally telling it

do you know how much i like you? how much i love you? of course not. i havent told you yet. i havent told you for....a VERY VERY long time. i've had enough now. i always try to make time to see you. i even told you i'll go and visit you because you live so far away, you you still say you're too busy for me. you wont even take a few hours to see me after not seeing eachother for that long? its been crazy for me trying to have us see eachother and i've waited enough now. i cant say that the time i've waited was a waste, because it's not. i've learned that waiting can hurt someone really bad. i know you dont realize this and its partially my fault for not telling you but what can i do? you never have the time to talk. this is something serious and its not like i can just tell you this over facebook. i havent seen you for almost three years now, and i miss you so much. im afraid i dont love you anymore, and i've already moved on. i cant believe months ago i was still crazy about you, just like i had been for the last 3 year...and all of a sudden i realized i cant go on like this. i have to let you go now. i kinda want to know what you feel, or felt about me though.. i guess i'll never know. now, i just want to say goodbye, and tell you the last three years of my life that involved any thought of you, was painful.

so, where's the end of this shit tunnel?

so on saturday, as some of you might now, i went to a halloween party that eventually for out of control. everything i didnt there i regret now. i friend told me before i went there to "not do thything i'll regret" and at that time, i didnt listen because i thought i could control myself.
i didnt..and whats worse, i dragged another friend into this mess with me. i told him to come to this party with me and he did. we both got into the biggest shit of our lives. without going into all the details again, i put him in so much danger...
the details of the party, i dont remember anything. another friend told me about an unfortunate incedent that happened with me and someone else. i wont say what but that resulted badly.
my dad is neglecting to talk to me now because he is too dissapointed. my mom's not here right now but i know when she comes back, she will be just as furious.
this was probably the worse decision of my life..and i apologize to the friend that i brought to the party for getting him into this mess.

Friday, October 30, 2009

School

So...im at school in block A and im on blogspot. OMG SO COOOLL!!!!!
........not.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Some of my favourites

Soo, here are some songs and movies that i really like and think you will enjoy as well.

Movies:
The Lakehouse/ Il Mare (Korean version)
Armmegadon
Top Gun
Gladiator
A Walk to Remember
Terminator 1,2&4
The Godfather (all)
Wanted
Wall-E
Law Abiding Citizen
The Dark Knight

Music:
La Luna- Belinda
Ravers Fantacy (all remixes)
Waves- DJ Satomi
Meet me halfway- Black Eyed Peas
Halo-Beyonce
What you got- Colby O Donis
Almost ALL Masrai songs
Painted on my Heart- The Cult

Bunch of randoms

so um, yesterday, i got a brand new phone imported from taiwan!! =D its dark purple and its very shiny. i know, it might be girly but its not! i love it. it has so much functions on it but i cant reald the stupid chinese manual so i dont know whats on it
pe, good news. finally the soccer unit it over. we have wrestling next and as promised, i am going to wrestle li-anne who is gunna be kissing a lot of floor when i pin her down and win =)
yet. im still discovering how to use it properly. yayyy!!
this past week has been hard. i dont understand the new concept in math so i'll have to ask for extra help....frickk i hate asking for help.
im buying 15 home made cupcakes from christine tomrrow =D it is for her kenya humanuties trip she wants to go to summer 2010. i really hope she gets to go and do what she is so passionate about doing for the past year. the easter cupcakes were good =p i will pick them up tomorrow
hmm, i know i like you now. even more than before. this is not good..i dont know what to do. i liked you for some time now, but something happened and i had my doubts. but now, im doubting my doubt. maybe it can still work. frickk why cant telling someone you like them face to face be as easy as msn or facebook. like i said, i never have good luck with these things so i think i've decided to keep it to myself and pretend nothings happened and remain the same so i wont screw up our friendship. maybe this is worse than telling then you like them over msn or facebook but too bad! dont know what to do.
fawk, pe leadership class tmr. gotta be at school at 7:30. why the fck is it that everyother school doesnt have a REAL class for pe leadership and mountain does huhh?? its so annoying...we actually get homework..=.=
you might be wondering where are my stories. maybe not BUT they will be here next month =) soo...yeah. i hope you enjoy.
good night, byee

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Could it be?

While i was doing homework today, i was also on msn and stuff and well, i was sooo happy to see your window pop up to talk to me. thats weird cuz i didnt think i liked you but this could mean something. really? i dont know, and i doubt it but it was a sudden rush of happyness when i saw your name and my whole world lit up for that one second. i dont get happy like that when i see anyone elses name..hmm. i hope i'm wrong cuz i never have good luck with people i like so i'll probably end up not saying anything anyways and it will just pass like nothings happened.
we'll see ;)

Past week

SO my week was pretty boring. Actually, everything about this website has been pretty boring sooo...I have decided to work on this blogging thing with another person =D
She is a much more smart and creative person than me. She will jazz things up and make it look a lot nicer than it already is..which isnt that hard to begin with.
So i went to lazer tag on friday, it was pretty great. I got 5th the first game and 1st the second game =D Last time I played, I got 1st on both games, so I guess this was a disapprovement but whatever, I had fun.
Before that, I ate sushi with Chance and Dalraj on Kingsway and talked about our plan to blow
-the thing- up on halloween bcuz we have been at was with -the thing- since grade 5.
I think it will be successful bcuz we have it all planned...just need the firepower now =/ shouldnt be too hard to come by. After, we played Mario Kart Wii, and i totally sucked at it. I will improve.
then yeah, went to lazer tag.
On saturday, I just worked...

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Just a thought

THE ONLY THING THAT WENT THROUGH MY MIND WHEN I SAW THAT WAS "WHAT A FUCKING DUMB BITCH" There, I said it. That made me feel better.

My other blogging thingy

Hey guys, if you're here, thanks for coming. I'm still trying to organize everything for my
viewer(s). I will be shortly writing my stories that my friend Landy said were good. I hope she's not tricking me because that would make me look like an idiot. So I've done all my homework for this week, I told my sister Kathy to hide my PSP until i was done and it worked, I finished everything in two hours.
For those who care, my faux hawk is finally growing back, after getting it ALL cut off a month ago =D
I hope you guys are checking out my Facebook videos. I think they're quite entertaining. I hope you guys are having as much fun watching them as I am making them.
Yeah, good night guys, make sure to check out my Facebook videos and drop a comment alright? ^^

Monday, October 19, 2009

Blogspot...you lagger >.<

Blogspot, you are stupid. Why are you so slow at uploading my videos? Even when you are done, why do you go so slow? Like, my visuals will be playing at one speed and my audio will be different. Are you stupid? It would have been soo much easier if you would just let me put a video to each post, but instead, you are making my viewers come here, and then Facebook. You are gunna drive my fans away because they will be annoyed.
Its ok blogspot. I forgive you. If there are no videos here, then my fans will read my stuff more thoroughly. I guess thats one good way to look at it.
Anywhom, I have uploaded another video onto facebook with the jacket I bought from Forever XXI.
Please enjoy, and no mean comments.
-JHT

Awesome day at Metro =)

So, I lost a bet wayyyy back in September to one of my PE leadership students who is now my friend, Erika. She said if she made the team, then I would have to owe her something. I agreed to it because I didn't know her back then. She made the team. As happy as I was for her, I had to owe her something. It took time to think about it then I came up with the idea of us going to Metrotown, get lunch, take sticker pictures, and I would have to try on girls neon tights O.o
Believe me, I was scared. So we went, this Saturday the 17th. I had a lot of fun. We talked about lots of things and found out little things that we have in common. It was good talking. We watched a movie first. It's called Law Abiding Citizen. I loved it, I've seen the previews and really wanted to see it. Im glad Erika liked it too. I would have felt bad if I made her sit through a two hour movie that she didn't like.
After that, we walked around for a bit. We saw some random guy signing autographs in Metro and he looked so lame. Only like five people were in line to get his autograph. I almost felt bad for the kid, but whatever. No one knew who he was..I doubt the people who wanted his autograph didn't know who he is either xD
After that, we went to American Apparel for my doomed fate, BUT, instead we saw these shirts that said Aa, or Bb, or Zz...you get the point. So Erika and I ended up getting matching shirts.
Then we went to CHQ and took sticker pictures. It was my 3rd time in my life I took those, and the 1st time I actually got to decorate it. I got TOO carried away and ended up making a mess with all my stamps and squigily lines XD It was very fun though
After, we went to Forever XXI. It's a nice store but there are 2 floors full of girls apparel and 1 time cornor for guys stuff. I found this dress jacket that goes very well with my dress shirt, dress pants, and dress shoes, so I bought it. We walked around some more and got to know eachother a little better. After talking, I went with Erika back to Lougheed. I made good timing back to Sperling and only waited 5 minutes for my bus. All in all, a very good day.
*BIG thanks for not having me dress up in girls neon tights, Erika. Very VERY appreciate it =D

Sooo..

First off, this is like my 5th time doing something like this. It has never been successful in all my life of attempted blogging. I've done Freewebs, Hotmail, Twitter and Picso. I think I'm not destined to blog about anything but hey, what the hell right? If I fail, I'll leave a mark on the blogspot database. That's the way I see it.
I have no idea how to use this. This looks super complicated, not as bad as Picso though.
Whaooo.. there's an auto save to this thing? I just saw it, thats cool.
I just realized how girly my profile for this thing looks...it didnt look this femine when I was selecting the layout and stuff. My friend said I have a creative side and should embrace it. I don't see anthing creative about this. I agreed to this anyways, to give my blogging skills yet another chance.
I don't even know what to talk about. Its not like my life is interesting or anything.
I think I will write stories. Another friend said I was good at that. Mostly, I will write random things.
Yeah, sounds like a good idea to me. I'll write things that I will look back and remember. Please stay tuned for my next blog, whenever that may be. Be patient. Below is my video I made. Enjoy!
-JHT