Tuesday, November 24, 2009
at school
i got grounded from the computer for 2 weeks..so i cant go home and watch yu-gi-oh. i would go home homework free =D
thats the end of my complaining. talk to you....when i can get a hold of another computer, or sneak on at home xD
"when im feeling blue, all i have to do, is take a look at you, then im not so blue"
Sunday, November 22, 2009
yu-gi-oh obessed again?? 0.o
other than that, i missed yet another sweet 16 this weekend. it was my good friend jenny's. it looked and sounded like it was so much fun. frickk. i cant believe i missed 4 people's sweet 16s in less than a month.
i have three tests next week..time to study. physics, math, and law
x.x dooomed..and still wanna watch that old cartoon ='(
"It's time to d-d-d-d-d-d-duel!! *music*"
Thursday, November 19, 2009
whats going on?
im bored as hell right now, and suprised that i have kept this blog going =) it still looks crappy and plain but i have had some friends that offered to teach my how to jazz things up but i think im just gunna leave it the way it is. it doesnt have to be fancy like everyone elses. it just has to have posts. im trying my best to get one post a day...but its not working out too well.
SOOOOO first off, for the past week, alls i've done is watch the original Yu-Gi-Oh episodes starting from Pegasus' Castle battles with the Star Chips =D its sooo awesome. the last time i watched those same episodes was like 6 years ago xD finished that part, the part where they go to the virtual world to save the Kaiba brothers, and now Yugi is battling with the Dungeon Dice Monsters xD i know im a nerd but hey, its my childhood show =) that and Power Ranger Mighty Morphin Ranger series. cant wait till i get to the part with Kaiba's blimp and all the shadow games =)=)
haha you said that the pie i baked on tueaday looked good, so what did i do..?? i baked you one =) i even put your initials on it =D but what do you do, you take a few bites and give it all away =( i as a little disappointed bcuz it was for you >.< good =")">
math is soooo gay right now. fck the graphs and parabolas and polynomial functions. when the hell am i even gunna apply this in real life?? physics math might be harder but at least i can picture it and its useful..math shit isnt =/
oh yeahh, my sister Kathy made the school basketball team. congragulations kathy, now we know mountain wont win. XDXD just kidding, but really, congrats sis =D
"I remember, when i met you, all the stars were hanging in the air. in this moment, nothing mattered, but the way you caught me in your stare"
Monday, November 16, 2009
my sister's FML story
this made my day =]
Sunday, November 15, 2009
make it break it.
so i was having pizza with a good friend of mine and i discussed that the problem that involved you. i talked how careless you are about trying to see me. i talked about how much effort i am making just to see you. i said that everytime i try to see you, it seems like you make up some shitty excuse to not see me. like i said, i am always willing to go to you, if you are too busy to come to me. you wont even come of a sec to see me after almost 4 years. im getting very tired of that and its upsetting me. my friend asks me: "if you're doing all this to see her and shes acting the way she is, is it worth going through all that trouble?" i said, "i've waited so long. it cant hurt to wait just a little more" and its true. i HAVE waited very long. it seems like all the days i have planned for us to meet is discarded by you. so, this is why i have made this last date. i told my friend, "i have made this last date as a last attempt to see her. december 21, first monday of winter break. if for some reason she doesnt show up, that is when i spend no more time thinking of you anymore. that is when i turn away from her and say fuck it." my friend hears this and asks me, "so, that date for you is pretty much just for her to make it or break it right?" i thought about it. it was totally correct. thats exactly how i feel. make it or break it. i dont have much faith anymore of you showing up. you've let me down too many times. so thi is it. if you do decide to break it, i'll know every effort i have tried to bring us together has been wasted. everything, gone. thanks for talking to me friend =) if not for you, who knows how much longer i would kept chasing the moon.
"in a moment we could lose everything, lets talk about this somewhere only we know"
Thursday, November 12, 2009
bitching about homework
and baking homework, what a fcken joke. seriously, i already have the recipe and now i gotta write the whole fcking thing out again?? to my teachers format? no fcking way! whats with all these pointless homework assignments huhh?? honestly..what good is it to copy out somethingp perfectly fine?? >=( stupid baking teacher and her homework. damn, mudafckah stupid!! barely even started yet... oh jeeze... fricken sucks..
there, im done my bitching on stupid homework assignments for now. thanks for listening. good night, im going to school early tmr for another pointless lesson and more pe leadership homework.
early dismissal
yesterday was pretty much total crap but got wayyy better after about 6 pm. i talked to my 2 very good friends wendy and landy and they totally cheered me up. a little bit of cappacino and talking with my mom helped.
soo, i thot i'd provide a few trance that will totally take you away.
-trip to paradise
-raver's fantacy
-dj boyler-keep on moving]
-primary disease
-melody from heaven
so lets say you're bored one day and have nothing to do, check out those songs. they're amazing, and even better if blasted like crazy =)
"Just smile for me, would you be down for me, would you be around for me, im your loverr"
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
its funny how things work out in the end..
"Do you remember, a kiss under the moonlight,back when it was summer, it was love at first sight, and can you remember, cuz i feel the same now, right through the winter, we'll see blooming this love"
lies
"I've still got your face, painted on my heart, scrowed upon my soul, etched across my memories baby and i got your kiss, still burning on my lips, the touch of our finger tips, this love so deep inside of me, baby"
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
dont get to do anything
so, i have been pretty good about keeping my feelings to myself. if i supress it for long enough, maybe it will be gone. i think its worked. i usually supress it cuz i have bad luck with that stuff -__- blehhh. its good to think that this went by unnoticed. maybe its not gone but im just telling myself its gone so i can get over it. either way, there is nothing good or bad that will change my feelings towards other ppl. so bottom line, if it doesnt work out, i'll be mad at myself for a second, and get on with my life.
and just saying: my blog loooks wayy too plain. dont know how to fix it up but whatever.
shopping list 101
-speakers
-headphones
-radio/cd player
-minifridge (maybe; not likely cuz parents probably wont allow)
-a stocked shelve full of snacks
-awesome curtains
-an amazing car poster (maybe 2, or 3.....maybe cover my whole wall)
-a few gundam seed/wing and car models i can build myself
-new clothes for my closet (definatly) =)
-a laptop than im buying in christmass!!!! =D
-car tint for my windows xD probably be soooo cool. maybe...40%?
thats everything i can think of right now. i know there was a lot more but... this is it for now i guess.. i shall one by one get everything eventually =D
Sunday, November 8, 2009
downwards spiral.
but today, i completely missed ALL of wendy's sweet 16 =( i will make it up by doing a video for her. gotta get creative again.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
school and such
in math, we're learning quadratic equations and parabolas and stuff... we had a unit test on that today and what i knew, i knew really well but i forgot to study a whole section!!! so.. the best i can get now is about 22/28......cuz i left the spaces blank. i really need the highest mark i can get in math right now...plus our teacher is crazy.
in engrish, im actually getting 96%!! holy shit, i suck at engrish and i somehow managed to pull a 96%?? =O thats pretty awesome. in french, i think im getting about 84%...not too bad considering i hate and suck at french.
schools hard, lifes hard, ahh, i need something BIG to just come out at me now and just cheer me up..still hoping.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
what if..?
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
its hard keeping it in...finally telling it
so, where's the end of this shit tunnel?
i didnt..and whats worse, i dragged another friend into this mess with me. i told him to come to this party with me and he did. we both got into the biggest shit of our lives. without going into all the details again, i put him in so much danger...
the details of the party, i dont remember anything. another friend told me about an unfortunate incedent that happened with me and someone else. i wont say what but that resulted badly.
my dad is neglecting to talk to me now because he is too dissapointed. my mom's not here right now but i know when she comes back, she will be just as furious.
this was probably the worse decision of my life..and i apologize to the friend that i brought to the party for getting him into this mess.