its hard keeping it in...finally telling it

do you know how much i like you? how much i love you? of course not. i havent told you yet. i havent told you for....a VERY VERY long time. i've had enough now. i always try to make time to see you. i even told you i'll go and visit you because you live so far away, you you still say you're too busy for me. you wont even take a few hours to see me after not seeing eachother for that long? its been crazy for me trying to have us see eachother and i've waited enough now. i cant say that the time i've waited was a waste, because it's not. i've learned that waiting can hurt someone really bad. i know you dont realize this and its partially my fault for not telling you but what can i do? you never have the time to talk. this is something serious and its not like i can just tell you this over facebook. i havent seen you for almost three years now, and i miss you so much. im afraid i dont love you anymore, and i've already moved on. i cant believe months ago i was still crazy about you, just like i had been for the last 3 year...and all of a sudden i realized i cant go on like this. i have to let you go now. i kinda want to know what you feel, or felt about me though.. i guess i'll never know. now, i just want to say goodbye, and tell you the last three years of my life that involved any thought of you, was painful.